Y .Saturday, April 29, 2006.
this world nvr fails to frighten me.
rmbs that time after school that whole bunch of ppl
went up to victor and scold him.
this class is much much much more scarier then i know.
i dun understand what are they thinking.
i dun know what is victor thinking
what kahyan is thinking.
but i think i shld i at the least care for their feeling.
i thought of using this stupid why of condemming people that happens in school
in my SVA drama.
but im afraid to hurt ky's feeling and ppl in the class.
but they will nvr know how terrible they are. becos.
there's no mirror to reflect what they did.
it really struck me.
when xuebin say "you are just like last time[in primary school]"
think about it, it really is.
that one always sticking up for ppl who are somehow being 'condemn'
i missed 2d.
where everyone are so nice and friendly.
every feeling counts.
another persontold me sth that also make me got more clearer image on myself.
xueying "you are like last time still falls saliva when toking~"
ahem... not this sentence [forward]
"your laughters are not as 'true' and 'sincere' as it use to be"
lol
it really sounds as if im undergoing depression.
i think it is becos of my dad.
his death make me afraid of the world.
the relatives of mind.
promises
love given are not true.
i don't know if i can even make it to grow up.
it seems like everything falls apart.
damn. give me a break----
10:12 PM
Y .Friday, April 28, 2006.
我對他人的情感在歲月中變虛了.我笑容的意義很假.自己在大家之中的丑陋.明顯的讓我好自悲.
我想自己跌倒了,沒有可能有辦法在站起來.現實的殘酷我寮.可是想要逃避.
虛空是虛空.
我的心容不下這世界.這世界讓我恐懼,在自己所謂的家,心靈所受的創傷,無法醫治.流在多的淚水也無法從這黑暗中救我.我的靈魂不斷的在墮落.
有一天,我將消失在人間.暗笑這世界的人.痛苦與絕卻無能為力.
我又如何奈何得了世界的虛偽表面.
一切都是騙人的
damn. give me a break----
4:31 PM
Y .Tuesday, April 18, 2006.
did not post for my birthday.
but i shall make it up.
pictures!~
also the last time we went to kbox one.
enjoyed my day at orchard.
lol
thank you aquarium for ur present and love.
damn. give me a break----
6:49 PM
Y .Wednesday, April 05, 2006.
闭上眼, 我好累.浮现出的画面是你的微笑你的温柔.听见的是你那渴望的声音.吻着你的香味.你在我眼前,可是你不属于我.我了解.可是,我想要你做我的男人.我想把我的爱给你.我只想让你知道我爱你.可是我连靠近你的机会也没有.
闭上的眼睛也无法控制,那为你掉下的泪珠.心里只想忘了你是那么的完美. 那么得让我心动.世界的一切有你在.都是虚幻的.因為我很累.
damn. give me a break----
7:36 PM
Y .Monday, April 03, 2006.
I CANT BELIEVE IT~
I BROKE MY RECORD FROM 2005 TILL 8.15PM TODAY
I TOK ON PHONE FOR HALF AN HOUR THE LONGEST SINCE 2005!~
HAHAHA
can't believe it was shared with prish~
i hate toking on phone~
good habit learned from young haha
damn. give me a break----
9:21 PM
