hais~ i'm tired~ ahyi died ler~ way before i reach the house~ at 1235 noon. today, 26 oct. i was told~ they brought her back home~ but when they were fixing the machine for her at home, about 10 mins later~ she stopped breathing~ went to to chant and chant~ rather tiring~ >.< fall asleep keke>.< then around the evening i realise that~ i may not be able to send ahyi off to cremate~ cos i'll be having chinese 0 levels~ maybe if i rush after that, i would be able to catch up~ but i may not>.< supposing our school is the lousy slow motioned one~ hais. just now even help ahyi to change~ 2nd time touching a dead body~ but braver this time~ i had the chance to leave the room but i chose to stay~ becos i believe, it would help me get over her death faster~ ^^ so~ after that, i just have to come home~ to disinfect myself~ actually my hands still itch a lil here~ keke~
okie~ prishie~ i've you are reading, paiseh hor~ the forum~ pls help me~ i cant get to manage it for you this few days~ but will try to find chances one~ sorry prishie~ greatgrandma and grandma would help her too right? THANKS ALL OF YOU~ I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! muacks~ lol >.< sijia beesuan they all going to kbox this saturday~ hais~ nvm~ funeral more impt. o levels more impt. SIPEI JIAYOU~ ===my cute `lil pink sotong~
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12:06 AM
Y .Wednesday, October 25, 2006.
very tired now~ hais~ after Chinese Orchestra, i'm suppose to go sing kbox with sijia and andy~ but walking to JE entertainment centre, received a sms for mummy, saying ahyi's brain's blood vessels burst~ >.< pretty shocked. bad have to wait for news wad am i suppose to do, in the end left sijia and andy to NUH~ SORRY SIJIA AND ANDY!!! you guys waiting for today for so long~ hais~ rush to the hospital, saw alot of 'long time no see' relatives, and 'i never see you before' relatives~ >.< ah yi's is like~ 'brain dead' blood clot pressing on her veins~ all we can do is wait for her heart to~ stop functioning slowly~ hais. somehow~ feel very very tired of the lifes i have to face~ my dad, kimkim, ah yi~ they struggle through the diseases~ cancer, kidney failures~ you see so many people crying for them. for ahyi's case, her family felt that it is too sudden~ but if it was you, early in the morning, you wake up, she serves you breakfast as normal, even cook birthday noodles~ heartbreaking. johnson gorgor. jiayou! it's ur birthday today~ T.T your worst birthday maybe. johnson korkor, jason korkor and jiujiu stay strong. three big man went blur and unable to accept it~ >.< jason korkor to me is them most calm person~ but~ hais~ ah yi will go any time. i'm back home, i'll go to school tomorrow~ let's hope ahyi will stay real strong. T.T okie~ let's write down some of the memories before i block them. My BEST and FAVOURITE ahyi~ she's always nice to me~ me ahyi and mummy would go downstairs to the hawker to eat duck noodles together~ ^^ then she would always stuff me $20. $10 for me, another for jianhong. then, when we go shoppping, she would always buy for me things~ >.< especially things that my mum dun want to buy~ lol when my dad pass away, the first newyear~ she packed a big big hongbao for us~ this are the newer memories~ i still remember in my kinergarden days, she would make me sit on the floor and she sits on the bed, and she would tie up my hair in many different styles~ she would tie so tight~ that my scalp hurts. haha~ then i would spent my afternoon at her house~ after my lessons becos mummy and papa are working~ she would bring me to ntuc~ and i would always help her to carry her stuffs~ after buying things, she would go to the bubble tea house which once located in jurong point's basement~ haha~ i remember~ i use to dislike bubble tea~ as they look disgusting through the pictures>.< typical sipei would always ransack her storeroom for games when she is bored~ once even ripped open a pack of toys~ that is suppose to give to other children as present~ haha~ OH YAH! and the most scary side of my ah yi~ is always the time she would PLUCK OUT my teeth~ cos i love to play with 'shaking' teeth~ she finds it irritating~ remember clearly once, when we were eating porridge, i keep using my tongue to play with the tooth then she notices it~ and say~ 'what are you doing?' when i explain, she push her fingers into my mouth, find the tooth, and pull it out~ then i have to rush to the toilet, rinsing my mouth~ things that comes out of my mouth : blood tooth rice~ [thinks of it, i feel like puking~] haha~ i cant rmb anymore stuffs~lol limited memories~ OH YAH~ and she likes to bully maids in the past haha~ okie lahs~ tml have to go school~ i'm tired too~ ^^ EVERYONE, JIAYOU!~
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11:17 PM
Y .Sunday, October 22, 2006.
060709 Summer Songs Medley, U on KBS Music Bank-SUPER JUNIOR
looking into my favourites U live~ conclusion~ heechul pass kangin pass ee teuk pass eunhyuk and kibum pass yesung JUST pass~ it's only till the back that everyone pass~ they shld pratice more
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6:13 PM
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TVXQ 3rd Album ShowCase part6
the show case is~BEST!!! GOSH! i would like to see the dance live!!! SHUAI!!! gosh~ today is you tube day~ haha
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4:33 PM
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061020 Jung SunHee Radio DBSK singing You Only Love Acapella
I MISSED AND LOVE DONGBANG SHINKI ACCAPELLA!!! GOSH THIS IS PERFECT MAN!!! ahhh
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3:49 PM
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Mnet show king-dbsk singing different songs
this is old~ but, SHIHJOO! THIS IS A MUST SEE!!! XIAH IS SOOOO CUTE SO SHUAI IN HERE~ his voice and dance. i think at e end when he is perfoming rain one is damn cool!
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3:33 PM
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Timeless - (ENGLISH) - full version
full Kelly Clarkson & Justin Guarini original English audio version of "Timeless"
wow~ i'm shocked to find this! the author used korea ver. mv. come parted to korea very. the male part is totally no as good as xiah's unique voice. as for female part, i'm spechless and have no comment~ both jang ri in and kelly were great!!!
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3:19 PM
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061014 MBC Music Core - Intro + Ill Be There
SAME SONG AGN! no dance~ i wonder if yunho oppa can dance ler mahs. but all i know~ KIMJAEJOONG IS CUTE HOT SHUAI!!! gosh~ i love his blond hair. YUNHO OPPA!!! i love the intro tons!!! wonderful co ordination!!! junsu~ dun wear dangling earrings ler!!!
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3:13 PM
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DBSK(061019)M.Net Show Music Tank_I'll be there
AHHHH! yunho oppa is finally back~ T.T very very touched! i believe somehow they have their reasons to sing this song! ^^ yunho oppa's voice is getting more sexy!!! ^^ but why?! tell me changmin~ why did you do away ur CHIO CHIO HAIR?!hais. T.T YUNHO OPPA!!! how i wish to hug him and cry to say 'everything will be alright!' [to comfort myself>.< nnot him~] wow~ joongie voice~ and xiah voice. JUNSU IS GETTING BETTER!!!! but it's only joongie's voice which makes my heart~ either pound too fast or stops~ KIM JOONGIE!!!
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3:10 PM
Y .Wednesday, October 18, 2006.
was surfing TVfXQ_SFC just now. came to this 'game' played by people sharing their view, who would they choose from dbsk to become, husband, lover, best friend, brother, boyfriend. i joined in the fun~ rather proud of how i had analyse it~ here:
1) Husband: Changmin. i think i would go for his intellegience~ and he would be able to earn lots of money!!!
2) boyfriend: yunho. why? becos. he would be someone who i would be proud to walk down the streets with. and proud to bring him home to see my mother~
3) brother: junsu. this fun and loving guy would make million times better compared to the brother i have now~ he would be fun to be with, i can bully him. and maybe someone who is sensible and responsible^^
4) best friend: micky. think my character and his would be nice to be together~ as we would become dependent of each others shoulders.
5) lover: joongie~ lover~ in some way makes me think of passionate love. that is unrealistic. kim jaejoong is like a fantasy to me too ^^ lover makes me think of wonderful moments. kissing and hugging too~ i would love to share this with him!
hoho~ funny that i did not put jaejoong as my husband. but. maybe i'm too realistic? HAHA~ WE ARE GOING TO WATCH DEATH NOTE TOMORROW!!!! YEAH!!!
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4:03 PM
Y .Monday, October 16, 2006.
YEAH~ i've done up a blogskin for prishie. i feel happy. it's simple~ and plus she put dbsk song into it, the whole thing is beautiful!!! ^^ go see what i have done for priscilla~ ^^ i like it~ it somehow gives me a power to calm myself down!!! but there is sth that i'm not happy with. is the navigations. it's doesn't suit the purple skin. hmm but i cant find other more seducive picture other then that!!! haha maybe i can do more!!! then all aquarium who has blog (yes i'm mean except huishan) has blogskins done by me!!!! WAHAHA~~ i'm evil!!! keke~ but mine are not very good. T.T I WILL IMPROVE MY SKILLS DE! i will~ =================================== anyway. mrs you gave me a 'mission' to do a video for open house. i know it's nice and it's a good chance. but i dunno i've am up to the job. and i have not much idea. not insipred. but actually when i'm writing this. the word 'MISSION' has inspired me! haha!!! let's hope i can do it. ^^ JIAYOU SIPEI! =================================== today, sectional new teacher. i really like her~ shuan ler~ as long as u give me a sectional teacher, china woman or man, who is strict. i will not like her~ haha~ but manage to pull xueying to join me ler~ ^^ hope she can do fast and join me soon. i really feel lonely~ and stressed and not confident. has. i dun like the feeling of being stressed out. ================================== got back some more marks. i FAILED MY ENGLISH by one mark. i dunno what the hell and why the hell i did so badly. but. I PASSED MY CHEMISTRY!!!! haha~ really, thanks alot huishan. ================================= i am not confident in going to ngeeann FSV ler. someone reassure me please. jaejoongie, give me courage and stregthen to hold on please!!!
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6:55 PM
Y .Sunday, October 15, 2006.
okie. have been reading this stuffs. YUNHO IS BEING POISONED~ replying and replying in forums. now i really have to spill my anger. people, sorry for my crude words. fuck off you auntie. u darn stupid auntie WHY DO YOU HURT YUNHO OPPA?! MAKE EVERY SO SAD AND ANGRY? I'LL STAND BY A SIDE WITH HEECHUL UNNIE! YOU HAVE ROTTEN BRAINS AND YOU ARE WORST THEN GGARBAGE YOU ASSHOLE. TRY KILLING THE FANS FIRST BEFORE YOU TOUCH DBSK! YOU THINK YOU WILL GET AWAY WITH THIS? NO YOU WILL NOT. GET TT FREAKING BUTT OF URS OUT. AND GO TO THE POLICE. NOW DBSK AND SUPERJUNIOR ARE IN DANGER AND IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE DONGHAE'S BIRTHDAY AND YOU ARE SPOILING ALL THE MOOD! YOU IDOIT. I HAD KOREAN ANTI FANS THEY ARE STUPID USELESS INSANE. JUST LIKE WAD THE ANTIS WHO WENT TO DONGHAE'S FATHER FUNERAL IDIOTIC I WOULD LOVE TO USE ALL THE CHEMICALS WHICH YOU TRY TO HURT YUNHO OPPA POUR THEM ALL ONTO YOUR BODY AND BURN YOU BURN AND BURN FUCK YOU
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3:28 PM
Y .Friday, October 13, 2006.
finally end of year is over~!!! but it also meant that mother tongue 'o' level is coming~ T.T horrible isn't it? hais. recently alot of things had happen. shopping, walking. and prishie's bdae. GOING TO CELEBRATE HER BDAE TOMORROW~!!! i feel so bad. i'm like suppose to give her unforgettable changmin. but looks like it's going to be delayed till christmas. ^^ but still did a small small present for her~ haha~ the ryeo wook is soooo cute! need to upgrade my skills~ >.< think that they all sucked. hais. so many things to do, to buy. got back some marks from end of year lers. not very happy. quite disappointed. lost pretty much of $50. T.T looks like the globe that i wanted is wasted. T.T nvm. I WORK FOR MY LIFE!!! wait. what's the life i want? looking at shihjoo going through the schools she wants to go. i know i do not have the ability to attend JC. and i do not have the confidence i use to have to go to ngee ann FSV. suddenly. i seem lost about my path, my dreams. i'm suppose to be more down to earth isn't it? maybe choose somethings like business.
suddenly seems so lost.
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10:23 PM
Y .Thursday, October 05, 2006.
BoA and Donghae Olympus CF
up loading for myself! wooots. i love this. cant believe poor donghae is suppose to be the mask man! although i know the msk man is not donghae! wow. how i wish to have the camera and the necklace!
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3:01 PM
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DBSK= O-Jung Ban Hub MV
wahaha imma back!!! enjoy people! credits to sunshinemoon (nicole!)
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3:01 PM
Y .Wednesday, October 04, 2006.
STRESS MANAGEMENT by sipei
when you are stress, go around and have a break, search ur hse or go and buy a pack of lay's and chocolate.
Words for Sipei. sister~ dun force yourself too much. you dont understand? that's it! why bother so much. u are stupid. so stop wasting the few brain cells left there. just one maths worksheet. and u are unable to answer a single question correct. so stop wasting your time anyway, no one would appreciate all ur hard work. no matter how hard you work, others will always think that it is not enough. you can't satisfiy your greed and other's greed. it's imppossible to live your own life. you are always living for others. you cant change it. so why choose be the good girl when u are not up to it? when, you do not even qualify to be one? STOP STUDYING,
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6:03 PM
Y .Tuesday, October 03, 2006.
congrats congrats DBSK THRID ALBUM 0 JUNG BAN HAB IS OUT! there so many nice things about it and i think their hair are so nice now! also! FIRST DBSK ALL MEMBER GOING TO XMAN! joongie and changmin! i've finish watching. joongie is so cute!!! WAHAHA!!! i'll search for the mv. the mv is totally cute! omg!!! and some live perfomance!!! woots!
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4:00 PM
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okie. i know. i'm blogging for the past.^^ sorry. just take that this is written on last tues.
26-09-2006. Energy Autograph Session. another wonderful memory. ^^ after school, i went on sijia's daddy's car alone to bukit panjang. OMG it was so NOT CROWDED. compared to the past. i think it's just the timing problem! i waited for a long time. like 2.30 plus to 3 or 4 sth for liqing. then she reach with the wanton noddles!!! we two tried to do some homework. but i cant concentrate haha. lets skip the queuing up part. it was so irritating and fustrating. in the end, me and everyone is seperated. and i have to go home early and beat my mum home! so i queue all alone. T.T then i finally got into the bars!!! then i start to reach the stairs to the gate! woots! then liyi was there staring into space. then she started to looking around. so as usual. i SMILED!. haha, can you believe that she smiled back at me becos im smiling?! haha. then i got to chat with her a while. manage to say~ "LIYI~ DONG BANG SHIN KI 3rd album will be out on 28th! (shld be 27th) must help to promote!" then she o~~~ okie. i dunno if she understand what i've said a not. then i went up!!! oooo so nervous! first time up without beesuan they all! first is ahdi! i told bee and liqing before, i'll kiss ahdi's hand. so when i went up. i stood there pretty long. he was trying out his marker. (no ink~) then he start to try the ink on the fans letter>.< he is so bad! i wait for ahdi to finish signing. i took out my hand. die die must shake~ then purposely hold out the right hand. as ahdi's right hand holds the pen so he takes out his left hand. (JUST NICE! AS EXPECTED!) then, takes a big breathe~ takes his hand up and kiss it!!!! actually i kissed his gloves. which~ some how stink after shaking with people>.< wow. this is crazy. but, THE EXPRESSION ON AHDI'S FACE IS PRICELESS!!! wahaha. can't believe it. kunda signs so fast. then my kissing of ahdi's hand stalk up some time. then when i reach to kunda, too shock of myself.>.< that i dunno wad to do. to kiss kunda's hand anot! then without realising, im in front of shuwei~ then i immediately turn back to see kunda! OMG SO SHUAI!!! (could have faint in front of shuwei) haha. then chat with shuwei! WOW SEN! i broke my record! i use to only say xie xie to him! i told him to be careful. "yesterday you've tripped, was captured by the camera~" haha, he like alil bit of embarrass! laugh it over~ mumbling "hui4 xiao3 xin1 de" then wow!!! it's over!!! rush of to beat my mum home!!! took a taxi. actually wanted to take a bus. but i couldnt find the bus stop~ so i gave up. anyway taxi is faster. if it wasnt for the train at bukit panjang, i could have save more money. >.< cos i rush off the taxi saying "keep the change~" but the taxi uncle was so nice!! it's not easy being a taxi driver~ so the $1.40 isnt too bad! thank goodness mum is not back! i just rush home, anyhow bathe (still sweating) then >.< act guai like nth happened, helping to iron the clothes. WOW. and she did not suspect anything. phew! but the next day i heard from liqing, when i kissed ahdi's hand, a few fans saw it and was screaming away!!! yicks! DON'T KILL ME PEOPLE! but i'm going to kiss his hand everytime i see him. UNTIL HE RECOGNISES ME!!! ^^wawahahaha
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